Showing posts with label #existentialism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #existentialism. Show all posts

23/01/2026

Talking About Yourself in the Third Person

I was asked a question recently, which I paraphrase here, "Why is it easier for Sam to modify their behaviour when they say 'Sam doesn't do that sort of thing?'" Here is my answer:

I suppose you mean it is easier than if you had made the equivalent statement in the first person as well as if you hadn't made the statement at all.

If so, we should consider the difference between Sam saying to themselves, 'I don't eat a whole packet of biscuits in one go' and their saying, 'Sam doesn't eat a whole packet of biscuits in one go'.

I can't help seeing an externalisation of will taking place akin to the Feng Shui practice of imagining a royal dragon as your guest and trying to make your home appealing to them. Jo might be prepared to live in a dark, squalid, cluttered home but not be able to assume that such an honoured and noble invitee would wish to enter a home in such a state. Even so, it is Jo who makes the judgements that lead to the two markedly different presentations of their home.

In Sam's case, the assertion in the first person might collapse because they know that they bloody well did pig the lot only two nights ago. By contrast, the same assertion in the third person creates somebody called 'Sam' in Sam's mind. 'Sam' cannot be the same 'Sam' - from Sam's perspective - that is denoted by the perpendicular pronoun a) because 'I' has a unique self-intimacy and b) because anyone addressed in the third person is not 'me' and not 'you'. They are outside the conversation and not directly addressable. They are a person, and a whole person, apart and separate from anybody in this exchange. They have their rights and views and Sam cannot presume to modify them in their narrow self-interest.

But a trick is being played by Sam upon themselves because this 'Sam' really is Sam, what 'Sam' wants really is what Sam wants, and - crucially - what 'Sam' doesn't do really is what Sam doesn't do.

So Sam, in an existential sense, gets to have their cake and eat it (but still not the biscuits). They be themselves, they create an alternative persona with a better ethical code than they've got, and then they realign the two like a car joining a motorway from a slip road, without actually allowing the whole system to collapse into the 'I' whose ethical consistency can be overturned by basic gluttony.

It is more subtle than the dragon method, due to the linguistic prestidigitation involved, but it's fundamentally the same mental process.

07/09/2025

Speak for Thyself!

I.

There in the drafty, darkened hall,
limbs and jaws and bones withal,
a row of bodies, nude as sin,
knee by hip, and jaw by chin.

Pale were they, and eyes asunken,
lips were puckered, and mouths were shrunken,
and there amid the mangy throng,
was one I knew, and knew him strong.

Yes, eyes; yes, ears; yes, flaxen hair;
the features that I knew were there.
But not the knowledge of his parts,
what gave him to me was his heart.

His heart, that is to say his whole,
his composite, his living soul,
but sight thereof led not to sigh
of cheer, for he - that ghoul - was I.

But I were me, then who were him?
And how had mind been stripped from limb?
Once one is rent in pieces two,
How can the wit be threaded through?

I have been told 'Speak for thyself!'
by those who witness not this gulf
between the wick that flicks and flits
and the combe that keeps the wits.

II.

A moaning and a twitching gave me start,
And shiftingly those figures broke apart.
Sight of self was lost amid the throng,
trespassed by their eerie, keening song.

Worse yet, their shrouded eyes began to peel,
the sight of all those sightless eyes unreal.
And worser still within that song of bone,
the voice I heard the loudest was my own.

Whence from, this voice that issued from my lips?
Who would to mind perform such censorship?
Oh, clamour and the blabbing of the horde!
I tried to think and could not, so I roared!

"Be silent, beasts; allow me to conjecture!"
and, in response to efforts at prefecture,
my own white face began to twist and gurn,
and spit and scream, and that was how I learned,

as all the fiends took up their cries anew,
my bruit was my articulation true,
that when I turned my thoughts toward my tongue,
resultant din was how my words were sung.

So what, my friends, is poet made to do,
when all their words are rendered cry and hue?
Should I above my brawl try to be heard,
or beauty that I shape be e'er deferred?

26/07/2025

On the Naming of Port Moresby


Ever since I realised that the protagonist in Paul Bowles' The Sheltering Sky is named for the capital of Papua New Guinea: Port Moresby, I've had a bee in my hat about it. In the following text, I will recount the common interpretation of this choice, my own uneasiness with it and finally reconcile myself with the author's choices in order to allow the bee to flee. Whether it does so or rather clings more deeply into my hair remains to be seen. This text contains spoilers.

Port identifies as a traveller, not a tourist, and - at the beginning of the novel - is in search of a place unspoiled by civilisation, an authentic and anonymous experience. Unfortunately for this wanderer, he possesses the name of a distant established place. On the surface, this looks like a joke. Or perhaps it is an admission from the writer that, yes, he is the puppet master and that he is determined to show his authority over the text, albeit capriciously. Most apparently take this as an irony. He wishes to wander aimlessly in the desert to find himself but his name is pinned to the map. And that may well be the fact of it.

However, I wondered if the symbolism went deeper than this. Readers of the Sheltering Sky will know that Mr. Moresby is ill-fated. He will get sick; his marriage will fail when his wife refuses to care for his disease-ravaged body, and then he will submit to death itself. Thus, does having a name which is 'on the map' imply that his end is also destined, that he will always have been travelling to this distant established place, a port indeed, an entry to another world? In that case, this novel, which was published in 1950, seven years before On The Road, will carry a similar message to its better-known cousin: that the search for meaning, although it can be seen as a kind of adventure story, does not inherently anticipate success. Indeed, gambling the coin of self-meaning in the casino of universal indifference may be an excellent way to ensure one's stake is not returned. (Kerouac, put your pen down!)

Well, this is all very well, very deep and very satisfying, but! -- this whole interpretation rests upon the eemis stane of nominative determinism. This is a school of thought whose most famous early exploration was by Plato in his dialogue Cratylus. The rolling 'r' sound of rho, ρ, is well suited to words signifying motion or flow, while plosives like 'd' and 't', which stop the tongue, are appropriate for words describing the end of motion, and so on, and so on. The reasoning that supports the link between the phonic item and its meaning rests in introspection, a feeling about a sound, which is to say - not an empirical observation, not a result found in a repeatable experiment. Try using the reasoning in the Cratylus on translations of the Cratylus itself! It therefore belongs in the group of intellectual activities that also contains numerology and astrology, often labelled 'pseudosciences' (for non-arbitrary reasons).

So what do we have now? A man with a funny name and a nasty conclusion. So far, so ignorable. But they remain together for the duration of the novel, like two words in a sentence. Bowles himself does not explicitly engage in any deterministic or other magical thinking (other than some elements of magical realism perhaps), but he leaves the reader in the company of the two, knowing - I presume - that 'This is a quirk' is not a result that will satisfy the reader of such a profound work. Coincidence places us in a dark room with two poles and allows us to connect them unobserved. It is rather insidious.

It is possible that that is it, that we, the readers, are simply the butts of the writer's dark joke. However, I will attempt a more optimistic conclusion. As can be seen by the inclusion of astrology in the group of pseudosciences, these carefully reasoned intellectual activities lean in the direction of mysticism, a system of religious belief which holds that there exists knowledge not accessible to the intellect. This is consonant with philosophical scepticism, a school of thought which, although secular, holds the same in a somewhat inverted manner, namely that true knowledge may exist but anyway is not available to us.

So, what if we employ this scepticism in our interpretation of Bowles' naming of his central character? Then it remains that the man is doomed to a miserable end and that, while his name may exist as a signpost to that destruction, the reasons forwhy Mr Moresby is star-crossed simply cannot be known. He just is, and it is his seemingly capricious naming, founded in the logically insubstantial practice of nominative determinism, by which the author communicates this impossibility.

This final interpretation may miss outright optimism. In fairness to the writer of his essay, I am looking for hope in a tragedy, but I believe I have found something resembling it. By this last effort at explication, Port Moresby's naming is neither caprice nor a joke on the reader but a meaning whose logic is seated deeply in the text and one in whose making we can be complicit with the author.

Hopefully that will be sufficient to release the bee!

Happy Ending

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